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# On Grief and What Grows After
- URL: https://www.readsouveraine.com/on-grief-and-what-grows-after/
- Published: 2026-09-29T17:19:29.000Z
- Updated: 2026-09-29T17:19:29.000Z
- Description: On Grief and What Grows After
- Author: coco
- Tags: The Inner Work

**While I**

One pushes up   
The daisies.  
The other is   
Grasping at straws.  
While I   
Sit with anhedonia. 

The one that I want  
Gardens.   
While the other  
Refutes responsibility  
Pleading propinquity.   
All while I am   
Merely subsisting.

Her soiled hands   
Taught me to garden  
With the compost   
Of the others.   
Now I sit in this shed  
Alone with the soiled gloves that rest. 

While she pushes up the daisies   
The other is  
 Sending spoiled seedlings  
Trying to pry this door.   
While I sit   
And refuse the other's pesticides  
Behind the latch  
Rusting shut.

Will the shed   
Become me?  
Or will the garden we built  
Poison the other?

\-coco